Perspectives

Road to recovery is never a straight line. There are days you feel liberated and like it is the end of your sufferings and dark days. You will come to believe that finally your prayers have been answered by God and the space in your chest does not hurt anymore. But the next day you're crying your lungs out like it is the most pain you’ve felt in a lifetime. You begin to question if any attempts to be better, any effort put in to be better, all energy invested to be better was ever worth it or even real to begin with. But that same night you’d be laughing out loud again with you best friends cause of the sarcasm filled conversations and jokes. You will have a “life is good” moment. This is life. This isn’t a movie. It doesn’t feel all happy and perfect the moment you start healing and getting better. You’ll relapse. You’ll question your self-worth. You’ll give up. You’ll get back. You’ll laugh until you snort. You’ll cut yourself again. You’ll feel grateful to be alive. Y

               Love is said to be the most beautiful feeling of all. One that upholds life itself and gives it meaning and purpose. One that gives strength to the weak, peace to the unpeaceful, constant to the constant changes. But sometimes, people tend to oversell love. Overestimate its power. Overestimate its capability. Overestimate the value it could add to your life. Because, it is viewed as flawless. Because you have never been taught how the kind of love that makes life better looks like. So, you settle in for the love that feels right in the moment, without knowing what it holds for you in the future. See, that is what I call the unhealthy love. Unhealthy love comes in different forms. It has many faces. But, all of it comes down to this one single thing. It leaves you feeling inadequate. It leaves you feeling like you are not enough. It makes you want to do things that changes you as a person but not for the better. You will be left constantly feeling the need to be